Well, boys and girls, it's that time of year again. The time where the lack of direction in my life feels magnified times 20 and I wonder what in the world I am doing. I am going to be 24. 24.....24!!! I work at a Super 8. Did I mention I am going to be 24?! I can't believe I will be 24 and working at some loser job, being a loser. I can't stand being outside of my life and looking in. It makes me sick to think of all the dreams I had. This is what my lack of motivation has done to me.
So what now?? I will continue to be walked on by my bosses because they pay me, watch That 70s Show and Scrubs because they make me giggle, treasure the moments I have with my son and PRAY. Pray that God knows where the frick I am going & PRAY that he'll give me a hint as to what I'm supposed to be doing. Really though, whose idea was it to make me a mother?! Pardon me while I double check my list of failures....
STOP! Ok, shut up Dawn. You tell yourself you're doing what you can but is that an excuse for being lazy? Eric has all of this ambition and I'm like a clump of mud. It's ridiculous. Oh, that there was some sort of shiny compass for life.
♥Dawn
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